None Of Your Bees Wax

and keep reassuring myself…

But for how long?

~*iris is listening to Lian Shang Ling Yi Ge Ren- You Hong Ming*

~*iris is afraid*

Sometimes, random people add you on facebook..

I dont usually approve unless i know them.

Then again, you can be like Ting says Mei Wen says “dont add ppl u havent met personally in facebook. for randoms, go to my friendster account (i havent logged into friendster in the past 1 year or so hahah).”

Then there comes a problem when u think u know this person cos u have seen the person before. so u approve them on FB.

This girl added me on friendster a long time ago. So when she added me in facebook, i thought she looked familiar so i approved her. Then she started adding my family and my friends.
Now that is weird.

Why would u wanna add my family and friends?

The moral of the story is, dont add by associations.

i think i know a good 80% of the 458 ppl i have in my FB. I thought i was ok with the 20% that io reckoned were friends by association, now, im not too sure…

My friend (lets call him J) asked me this today, what is the best way to assure his gf that the girl he liked just before he got together with her no longer means anything to him and that he only has eyes for her now.

Surprised at this question (because this friend of mine is known as quite the player in his days and this is one of the last questions i woukd expect from him) I decided to help him. I thought for a while then replied him; bring her out when you go to a party or gathering which you know your ex will be attending.

He was surprised at my reply and said that havoc will break loose when his gf sees his ex because it will only remind her of the past.

I told him that all he needed to do was to be extra attentive to his gf at the gathering, subtly throwing in little gestures in the presence of the rest. He doesnt need to make it a big lovey dovey display of affection, but just enough to let her know that she preceeds the rest. Small actions like holding her hand, talking to her, brushing loose flyaway hair fr her face or maybe offering her a bite off his fork and that should assure her that his heart no longer contains any one else and that he was not ashamed to show it (especially when the girl that his gf feels threatening or uneasy about is there).

This will at very least show her that he isnt using her as a rebound and eradicate any suspicions that he is maintaining contact with the ex because he fully intends to one day (when the girl wants to), get together with her again.

And if the girl from the past still hoards feelings for him, nothing will kill it faster than seeing him more happy and more in love with another girl.

It works for me la… at least that is what i would do and i think that is the best way to handle me when I lack assurance…

I dont know if it would work on his gf la but no harm trying right J?

what do you think?

~*iris hopes that it works*
~*iris is listening to Xia Xue- Fahrenheit*

Plan your time wisely.

Set three alarms for 6.23 am, 6.45 am and 7am.
Slept through three alarms
. err.. alarms didnt go off.

BF calls at 7.00 am.
Promise to wake up.

fall back asleep again. <3

BF calls again at 7.15am.
Pretend you didnt fall back asleep again. haha

Be very smart and give yourself a half hour buffer; leave the house at 8.45 when your exam starts at 9.15.

Dont bring anything extra ie: water and tissue because you plan to reach there just in time and go home right after.

Reach the exam hall at 9.10 (because you didnt take into account morning traffic).

Wait outside the hall smugly for only 5 mins (because you didnt arrive too early and have to wait under the hot sun).

Laugh secretly at people who came too early.

Go into the exam hall on the dot 9.15am and look for your seat only to realize that it has been taken.

Ask the examiners.

They tell you that the exam because you are so blur because of some freak nature cause is in the exam hall back in Uni.

Sprint 3 and a half blocks down and 2 and a half blocks across back to in uni.

Short of breath and you feel dizzy.

Still got 2 more blocks.
Wanna die.

Reach Wilson hall in Melbourne Uni at 9.33 am drenched in perspiration, lungs on fire.

mentally kick yourself for not bringing water or tissues.

Missed reading time completely.

People are already scribbling furiously.

See spots everywhere… @_o

Take 10 mins to regain sight and breath.

Sit for the 3 hour 2 hour and 45 mins exam.

And that my friends, is how you get a workout before your morning exam.
i am only thankful l i wore flats today.

~*iris is listening to Liang Ge Ren Bing Bu Deng Yu Wo Men-Wang Lee Hom*
~*iris is dead tired*

studying at all…

i wanna party… =(

have a little more faith…

*iris is feeling lethargic*
*iris is listening to You Yi Nian, You San Nian- Ping Guan*

On a lighter note, Happy Birthday Michael!
Hope your concert today was a success!
(all of you singing k without me…. exams…. pffTTtt)

okay la, i admit,
accounting is bearable (when u figure out how it works that is).

I spent most of last night figuring out consolidations. 26 marks in the exam wei.

-*iris is feeling accomplished*
*iris is listening to Wo You Zui- Wu Ke Qun*

besides fighting to be treated fairly in everything, nowadays i find myself getting unhappy about somethings, then quickly telling myself (or rather trying to convince myself)
“to be fair… this this this……”
“to be fair… that that that…..”

My sister says that im trying to make excuses for others, and somehow, channel the blame onto myself.
“maybe its because I…”
“or if I could only be… then things wont be like that…”

If you know my sisters, you know that it is VERY unlikely they will think this way.

I am the opposites of my sisters in more ways than one.
The one who works the hardest at relationships.
The one who’s heart is made of glass, whose tears spring to life just like that.
The one who once in love, there’s no turning back.
The one who wants to devote the rest of her life to just being in love to that one person (whos willing to love me back).

Many people in life are not ready to settle down.
They still want to play, to have their fun, to see the world.
It scares them to think about spending the rest of their lives with just one person.
and i think that its understandable.
normal people are like that.

The abnormal one is ME.
I just dont understand why I have been prepared and more than willing to be with just one person for the rest of my life since I was what? 21?
And even after my fall, I didnt learn.
You would think that i would be afriad to commit.
unfortunately, quite the contrary, cos Im not.

Even now, when i am in love, I am now still willing to stand by my bf for the rest of my life.
even if that means that that will be the only face i see everyday when I come home, even if it means that i will have to cook or clean.
You dont know how much just a smile from them can mean.

To be with the same person into years of gray; no it doesnt scare me.
I think, days of gray are not scary unless spent alone.
I am ready, just i have been years ago, i will be true and pledge my heart to the one who is willing to take it.

Ting says I’m a hopeless romantic.
and that i must be adopted.

Man… Im such a sissy. =(

Its so weird that that only applies to my relationships.
I let go of all inhibitions.
Im a girly girl in relationships.

To friends, or to family i’m not at all like that; I am the total opposite.
I do not let many people in.
I am not extremely sensitive when it comes to their feelings and I do not express my emotions easily.
And i dont expect them to shower me with the attention that i sometimes forget to shower them with (see? Libran at work; if i dont give my friends my 100% attention, i dont expect them to drop everything and come for me when i am in trouble. except for my bestie la, cos ive always been here for you and without you, i have practically no one to turn to).
To be completely honest, one of my bad points is that I am not the girl who wants to be best friends with everybody.
I think that a handful of trustable ones are more than enough.
This is one thing that i need to perhaps learn to change.

if only i could channel all the hope, effort and determination i have to find love into something more productive. Like work or something.
looking at the way things are, at least it will be more fruitful.

but then again, to be fair…. *stops self*

See what i mean?

Crazy girl…. *iris rolls eyes*

*iris is listening to Fever- Michael Buble*
*iris is a sissy* pfft….

How many of us really felt the last economic crisis? I know I didnt… it was 1997. I was beginning my first year in highschool. Only having moved to Kl fr singapore only a year ago, i was still a silly teen thinking that everything is half price (converting into Sing dollars).

This time round, I am feeling a bit more worried. Though there still isnt a direct strain on me, but I am very concerned about the prospective implications.

The possibilities are endless (and not in a good way)…

Times are not good.

Save money.. save money.. for who knows how long this will go on…